Large Hot Chocolate

So writing this in a Starbucks, this is a new experience, I always see people do it so I guess I can’t really be that bad. But I’m very self conscious of someone looking over my shoulder so I’m sitting in the corner of the less crowded upstairs part. It very comfortable up here anyway so I’m not bothered. However I’m a little at odds cause I feel like I’m the only one here that isn’t part of a couple. I mean all the tables are either taken up two people who are clearly in a relationship, and then one big ‘group of couples’. And looking around just makes me want a new relationship. But then I am a bit thin on the ground at the moment so I guess I’ll find something soon. When Mika said ‘Live you your life until love is found, cause love only gets you down’ I really think he just meant the pursuit of it. I mean I’m always in love and therefore I’m happy a lot of the time, but whenever I purposely go out and look for love then I find it hard and then it starts to make me miserable. 

Watching couples always makes me happy though. Like even if they’re unhappy it nice, and that sounds sadistic but hear me out. When people argue it’s only because they’re passionate about something, and when couples argue it’s just cause they’re really passionate about each other, it like seeing a couple look over a table and lock eyes and genuinely be doing it cause they’re in love and not just for show. Like in the group of couples, well mainly couples, sitting in here there’s one couple of two men. Big deal in our society right, it shouldn’t be but it is, and they can’t be snogging in public or anything but I still find them really romantic. Like they’re sitting next to each other and not opposite and every now and then they’ll just lightly touch each other. Like on the back or the wrist. And they don’t look openly gay, I mean unless you look. But there they are, really in love and it’s kinda amazing. Like as a race of people we have constructed the idea of love, and it’s amazing sometimes. In it’s simplest forms I guess. 

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Okay so news. I just met Hayley. She came up and sat basically next to me, by herself. I just had an amazing chat with her and we’re going on a date next week. So I’ll let y’all know how that goes. She’s really small, like only just over 5ft, and blond and really cute. She was the one to start talking to me as well, like she just looked over and asked what I was writing so vehemently. I told her it was just a article on literature, which isn’t untrue, I am currently writer one of them too. She’s also into literature and is doing a masters at the moment at Kings. Wow I really Love her. Also I’m really getting into this blog stuff.